Tonight really annoyed the hell out of me. I don’t want to hear about masturbation, I don’t want to hear about sex, I don’t want any goddamn thing to do with it. Call it a phase in my life where I don’t want to hear it, but I just don’t. I don’t want to speak to my boyfriend anymore. He just doesn’t get it. I am so done. I am finished.
Sometimes in life you just have to take a step back. I don’t know what the future will hold. Maybe my sex drive will return and I won’t be so turned off. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like throwing up. I never knew I could feel so sick. I don’t want any part of it. Just leave me alone. Don’t contact me. Don’t fuckin’ bother. You just don’t get it.
I just want to be left alone. I want a man in my life that understands me. I need a man in my life that gets me. I don’t need to feel uncomfortable and get sickened to my stomach. I am so sick right now. I want to throw everything up in my body. I hate sex and everything about it. I hate porn, I hate men I hate it all.
Just go away.
Go the fuck away.