I lie awake.
With thoughts of you.
Oh what have I done.
Guilt, immeasurable, inexcusable.
My actions were petty, because of an obsession of the mind.
The carelessness of the heart and soul.
That I had of us.
Was lost because of my impatience, my arrogance.
Never will I know trust, or love or security.
If I don’t give it a chance to endure, to grow.
Mistakes of a dream that I almost lost.
This isn’t perfect.
I am not a set of ones and zeroes.
I am human and I fail all the time.
I fail at life, I fail at love.
But I will not fail you.
I am sorry for my misgivings.
I am sorry for my imperfections.
I cannot bring myself to see what I have done.
I have lost.
I am broken.